No Skate Video

I’m Nemesus, and I’m currently about to ride downhill on my skateboard. Skateboarding is meditative—perhaps most comparable to yoga—except the movements happen much faster.

But this isn’t a conventional skate video. It’s for everyone who’s going through a rough time, whether they’ve been pushed off track or ended up on the wrong route. It’s for those who feel like I do. – Let me explain:

Five months ago, when I was about to publish my first videos, I felt like I was standing still, barely making any progress. It seemed like an eternity before I finally finished them all. But once I’d uploaded them, it felt like I was finally picking up speed. My plan was to release videos regularly from that point on, in a sense to train my editing skills. Maybe it could have worked. But things turned out differently than I had imagined: my father passed away a month later, and with him the business where I had worked for years closed down.

Suddenly, my surroundings seemed less friendly. They felt darker, as if someone had tweaked the contrast and color saturation. And although I was stagnating with my videos, life seemed to be rushing past me faster than ever before. The ride got uncomfortable and bumpy—too fast for the abilities I had back then to keep it under control.

Here you see me trying to keep my balance. Now it’s no longer about capturing as few shaky shots as possible for my video, but simply about getting down the hill in one piece. Eventually, it would go uphill again, naturally slowing me down. The first question was when; the second was how to move forward from there. – Stagnation is deadly.

Apparently, I did come to a stop, and of course I immediately attempted another descent. – However that loss may look—a family member passing away, a relationship declared over, or simply losing your job—most of us have been there. And if giving up isn’t an option, the only way is to press on.

This return journey won’t lead anyone back to exactly where they started. But maybe we’ll notice patterns from our past where we felt better. And perhaps they’ll help us navigate to where life feels sunny again—provided we’ve learned to control the damned speed.

But eventually, with luck, courage, and enough routine, we’ll manage even that..